Windy Sydney

Today I had three conversations with missionaries on Mormon.org. During these conversations, I will freely admit that I wasn't 100% honest about my name, or the reasons I was on Mormon.org asking questions. I was playing a part, trying to get the person on the other end of the computer connection to *think*.

These conversations shocked me... because I definitely know the truth now.... I have had the truth for over a year, and I have accepted it.

The people I spoke with, however, were truly living in a bubble.

They really have no idea. They don't know.

Every once in a while I have to take a step back and think, "Holy Sh*t, this has got to be one of the biggest con jobs ever..."

The fact that this "church" is still kicking and limiting the information it's members have truly blows my mind. The lie is SO BIG. There is so much money involved. There are so many people involved. Good people and bad people.

What gets to me the most is that there are people in this church in pain. Pain because they are not who the church wants them to be. They never feel as if they are good enough, they wonder why God doesn't love them as much as everyone else. They cry when their family members marry in the temple and they have to wait outside because they are not good enough. They hate themselves and suffer depression.

These are GOOD PEOPLE.

The only reason they feel that God doesn't love them, doesn't appreciate them or think they are worthy to do things like attend temple weddings is because of this church. Not because of God.

God doesn't care about what foods you eat, how much money you give your church, what kind of underwear you wear, or how many hours you spend sitting in a church building.

I suppose that is just my opinion, but there is no way that could ever change.

His love isn't conditional on all these rules the church sets out for you.

There are times when I don't know if I even believe in a God anymore. I do today. I do right now.

There has to be something? Something that started this whole thing called life? Maybe, maybe not... but a loving God loves you no matter what.

Done rambling now.

Andee